Deja Vu all over again

The ride to Boston this morning was a familiar one but it brought out some unexpected emotions. There was sadness, nervousness and hope all rolled together. I think the fact the this Journey could be starting the final chapter is both comforting and unerving. 

I have rolled through this experience with the best attitude I could muster, most of the time. Coming to the realization of all that I have gone through is really starting to sink in. That may sound odd but I have suppressed a lot of the emotion to focus on the task at hand, beating cancer. Now that I am days away from finding out if the battle has been won, feelings, emotions and all kinds of thoughts are bubbling to the surface. 

The other side of that coin is what if the war still needs to be fought and there are more battles ahead. While I really believe the odds are heavily in my favor, the thought of more treatment and surgery is not a comforting one.